Monday, April 27, 2009

The ups and downs of being an IF

So yesterday was the due date for the pregnancy that I lost in the fall. Now today I begin week 12 of my current pregnancy. How's that for timing? No need to tell you that being pg made yesterday much easier, but I did spend some time crying for my little guy that I lost. It's a mystery as to why the pg failed. The karyotype showed no chromosomal issues.

So......moving on. I need to focus on the baby that I'm nurturing right now. I've been so worried about so many things. I was losing some weight for about 3 weeks running. I never got to a negative net gain from pre-pregnancy, but it was starting to make me go hmmm. Oh well, apparently I took care of that. When I got on the scale this morning, I was UP. A little more up than I was looking for. I don't know where it came from either. I definitely was worried for the last several days that I wasn't getting enough food in me.

I woke up yesterday really anxious about whether or not everything is okay. I'm dying to get to the point that I can feel the baby move so that I will have a daily measure of how it's doing. I don't go back to the dr for another 2 1/2 wks. Man is that ever going to be a long wait. There are just a whole series of 2ww's aren't there!


  1. So sorry about your loss. These anniversaries are hard. I'm glad this pregnancy is able to bring you joy.

  2. I've often wondered if were fortunate to get pregnant again and there was a way to knock me out for the entire pregnancy, I'd be game. Go to sleep and wake up with a baby. Sounds pretty cool to me. :) All that waiting is tough!